The time is 10:46pm. Its the 18/11/2011. My mom just gave birth to a baby boy. Another half brother to be exact. Many of you have know that I already have 2 half sisters and they're annoying but I love the younger one because she grew up with me. I'm happy about getting a baby brother but also at the same time FUCKED UP! You know, its a very big thing for a Chinese to get a baby boy. Now, he's gonna get all the attention, my baby brother. As much as I hate my dad, I still don't want this to happen. I've tried to repair our fractured relationship, between my dad & I but it failed. It keeps getting worse actually. The things he does makes me hates him even more. Now that my half brother is born, there goes my life. I'm not saying that no one is gonna care for me anymore. I know many of you would say, he's a newborn baby, of course the adults will give him all the attention. That's not what I meant. What I meant was, my dad would definitely spend all of his time with my brother and would definitely forget about me. As you can see, I'm 17 already. He'd probably be thinking that I don't need anymore care cause I'm old enough to take care of myself.
I don't blame my brother for any of this. In fact, I'm not even blaming on anyone. Maybe I'm just thinking too much. TOO MUCH! SPM's coming to an end. What if I don't score? Will I disappoint them? I have a feeling that my younger half sister would somehow be neglected. She's only 2 and she's extremely naughty sometimes, THANKS TO MY DAD. He taught her things that she's not suppose to learn. For example, scolding her mom. WTF RIGHT?! Total shit hole! My dad had beaten her up before by caning her and also throwing stuffs at her. There's once where my mom quickly brought my sister in the room to hide from my dad, but he bang and broke the door. I really felt like breaking his FUCKING head with a walking stick that I have at home. But there are always consequences for everything we do. I might even end up in jail. I did nothing,
Fortunately, I have a bunch of friends who are always there for me. I really love you guys. You know who you are. Not to forget that I always have my very own mom that loves me more than she loves herself. And also God, the one and only faithful Father that I'll love forever and I'm proud to have a heavenly Father like Him.
I have to baby sit now as my stepmother has to rest and take care of the newborn baby. My 2 year-old sister is now sleeping soundly on my bed because she doesn't wanna sleep in her room. My parents ain't home, that's why. She loves me too. So, yeah. That's about it.
kthxbai.
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